Two years ago, I was afraid of wanting anything. I figured wanting would lead to trying, and trying would lead to failure. But now I find I can't stop wanting. I wanna fly somewhere in first class. I wanna travel to Europe on a business trip. I wanna learn about the world. I wanna surprise myself. I wanna be important. I wanna be the best person I can be. I wanna define myself instead of having others define me. I wanna win and have people be happy for me. I wanna lose and get over it. I wanna not be afraid of the unknown. I wanna grow up to be generous and big hearted, the way that people have been with me. I want an interesting and surprising life. It's not that I think I'm gonna get all these things. I just want the possibility of getting them. Keep walking and face life represents this possibility. The possibility that things are gonna change.
I'm back. And I have to tell you about my dream last nite, I HAVE TO! Because I dreamt about her.. Jane Fonda. I wanted her to teach me the "Nocturne Op.9 No.2" (♥) from Chopin, but I got really mad when I realized that my mum had thrown away a forniture where I could put my keyboard. But anyway, Jane taught me to play that song, and I was happy. So happy.